So I'll admit, even when I was thinner, I've always been a big girl. I have a large bone-structure (thank you German ancestors e.e) so obviously I'm made to bear children. You'd be amazed if you saw how large my hipbones are in xrays. Kinda cool actually. Allow me to illustrate a point here.

I currently weight around 240 lbs or so. I just got done being pregnant (beginning weight: 225 lbs) so obviously I gained weight. Being pregnant stretched out my stomach, and even if I DID lose weight, I highly doubt my skin would shrink down. This is the part of myself I hide, usually under layers, or under baggy clothing. Rarely, if EVER do I wear revealing clothing, even revealing for my breasts. They sag because they're tubular in shape. That sports bra there really helps.

This is the part of me I desperately try to hide from Sasuke, my own mate. I went to see him, things happened, but the whole time: he's never seen it. Why am I putting this in a public area? No, it's not so I can bitch and moan about the fact I have a stomach...it's because I'm tired of hiding.

This is me, guys. This is what I really look like. Yes, all you Anonymous assholes can come by and say "MAN THE HARPOONS" all you want but at least I'M not afraid to hide behind a computer screen and insult someone just because of the way they look. Chances are, you're fat too.

This is my gut. I call him Salvador. Fuck you, name parts of yourself, it's more fun.

I'm sick of the media focusing on women being skinny. Over 40% of women in America today are overweight (fatties) or are low end Plus-Sizes. This is just the way this world is going guys; we live softer lives. Granted, some women are thin by genetics, and good for you. What does fat put on women that makes us incapable of being loved? That makes us unattractive? Why can't WE be beautiful too, regardless of our size?

Yeah, I'll admit I get down on myself all the time about it, especially around Pat (mai Sasuke), but you know something? He loves me because I'm ME. He loves me for my mind, not my looks. To the idiots out there, there is a fucking difference between being fat and being morbidly obese: one's not healthy. Many overweight people (like myself) can be large in structure, and have excess weight on them but still be healthy. I'm fit as a Clydesdale as I always say. I gave birth to a healthy son, and had a relatively smooth pregnancy. I have family. I have friends. I am loved by the most wonderful man God could have ever given me.

Being fat isn't stopping me.

So here you have it: My Salvador.

Patrick, I'm sorry I hid this from you for so long...

/Rant